September and the Number 9

2001, on September 11th, tragedy struck our nation and world with terrorist attacks on US soil. The security of our nation will never be the same.
In 2005, on September 10th, my baby cousin, Danielle Karon Thomas ended his life at the age of 16. He was dear to me. We were extremely close and I have had a hard time forgiving myself for not acting upon the warning signs of his depression. Two weeks later my dear Aunt Jodi passed. A week after that, a very close friend passed.
In 2006, during the month of September I lost my job and began to experience debilitating migraines. I went through a serious period of depression.
On Friday, September 14th, 2007, my only sister, Lucretia Russell left this world at the early age of 36. She was a victim of a hit and run accident! She was my rock! She leaves behind a loving husband and seven beautiful children. I miscarried a child this month. My relationships and the world that surrounds me just seem to be turning upside down. I ask the question, "How much more can I take?"
I question the significance of these tragic events that I have experienced for the past 3 years in the 9th month of the year. I am truly a believer in the Word and the significance of the scripture.
The number nine, has a great significance in the Word. The Fruit of the Spirit comprises nine components: grace, love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, and temperance.
There are also nine Gifts of the Spirit: word of wisdom, word of knowledge, faith, healing, working of miracles, prophecy, discerning of spirits, divers kinds of tongues, and the interpretation of tongues.
Nine is the number of finality,judgement, completeness. It represents the end. For example, a woman carries a child in her womb for 9 months. At the end of the 9 months, a child is born. That is the end of her pregnancy. The pregnancy is complete.
Nine represents the end of man. I ponder, "the end of man." Nine is also the square root of three. Three represents Divine Perfection. I am going to attempt to examine the true meaning of "the end of man." Please know that I am not a biblical scholar. I believe that "the end of man" simply means to die to one's flesh. We must die to our flesh (9-end of man) and begin to operate in the Spirit (3-Divine Perfection). I believe that is why I am going through what I am going through right now.
Okay, God! You have my attention!!!!!!!!!!!!!! September (9) has been a very difficult month for me for the past 3 years. I did not understand it in 2005. I was too overwhelmed in 2006. I was not looking forward to 2007, but I am in a different place spiritually this year. Experiencing the death of a loved one is tragic, but with death comes new life. The death of my beloved has created a deep sense of love for my God, myself, and my loved ones. I cherish every moment of my life even more now than ever before. I cherish all of you that are dear to me. I am sincere when I say that I love you all dearly.
Keep me in your prayers, my friends.
Peace and Love.
God, massage my heart and the hearts of my loved ones during their time of grief.