My Spiritual Sisters

I woke up this morning with more complications from the miscarriage and I began to pray and to just thank God for His wisdom and His control of the situations and trials in my life. I asked God for peace and clarity. Although I am strong in my belief in God, I get weary and I need encouragement. I thank God for my girlfriends that are spiritually connected to me in an instinctive way. I have three that have been by my side for more than 20 years. We have known each other since the 3rd and 5th grade. After high school we all went our separate ways, but we remained close and important during those moments of happiness and grief.

I woke up at 5:45 am this morning to extreme pressure in my lower abdomen and back, cramping and uncontrollable bleeding. I wanted to cry, but my tear ducts are just empty. My heart feels heavy. As I began to pray, my mind began to drift and my heart started to get weary. My focus was getting off of God and onto my situation. I begin to think about this unfortunate miscarriage. "What is wrong with my body?" I stopped praying and reached for the phone and started to dial my sister's number. 1-443…….Then I remembered, I buried my sister a week ago today. Oh, how I long to hear her voice to comfort me, because she would know exactly what to say to make this pain go away. My cell phone begins to vibrate. "Who could this be?" I answer the phone with hesitation. "Hello," I said. "Hey, girl! Its me, Semika! I am sorry for callin' so early, but I had to check on you to see how you were doin." My tear ducts are full again. I begin to cry and to pour my heart out to my girlfriend of over 20 years and tell her about my pain. Her words were like a poem by Maya Angelou. They were full of wisdom and encouragement. I feel better now. I thank God for my spiritual sisters. Thank you, Chaisha, Tonya and Semika for your wisdom, strength, love and prayers. You all mean the world to me and I know you are all my Angels.